Days... Nights... Senses.. thoughts ...

will i ever improve? 

i really envy some  of my friends who has scholarships in various dance school. there’s hardcore trainings for them on top of the intensive trainings we have in school.

Eventhough how much i work i don think i’d be able to afford to pay for even the cheapest scholarship price i could find. I have many other household obligations that i have to settle myself . A divorced family with no one to help me cos i think im the only one left to help my mother. 

i think as of now, i can only afford for course classes. As much as i want to be a scholar, but ya know. Sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do. I’ll make full use of the things i learn i school and the classes that i’ll take later on. 

I really need to do something about my dance techniques, Lecturers keep saying that i have the artistry but lack the technique. But as much as i want too, will i know that these will be enough for me? will i be able to make it out there later on? Will i improve within these few years in NAFA? observing some of my friends they have training since young, i started late.

So these days, i feel stagnant and lonely in school. Honestly, i wished i have good friends in school. I guess for now, i have to take full advantage of whatever i have and push myself. 

So, this is my Dance Life.